Hiyeeeee! Happy Friday, and how have you all been doing lately?
Me, I’m a little up and down these days. Definitely better than I was a couple of weeks ago. A lot of pressure let up around the same time, and that has helped to ease my anxiety. It’s actually sort of wild, now, to be through the other side of that incredibly intense period. I can look back and realize just how much pressure I was living with, from so many sources, all at the same time. I feel so much more relaxed in my body now, and it makes me very aware of how we inhabit stress. Or maybe, how stress inhabits us. It’s such a physical thing, and it’s so nice to feel my body NOT contorted under that kind of pressure, these days.
So that’s good.
But life is still a struggle, and I know that it will be as long as I’m trying to do too many things at once (so maybe forever? that might just be my nature). However, I’ve been working hard to be mindful and present; to allow myself to feel the pleasure of each moment. Sunlight on my face as I’m heading back to the car after dropping Waits off at school. Flowers blooming in the yards as I’m walking to work at the wine bar. Breathing in the seabreeze air as I make my way across campus. Trying to make the most of these moments, and to build on them. I’m through the worst of things (I hope) and now I feel like I can focus on making my life something that I enjoy living again.
And now it’s time to put that mindfulness and presence into action, with my very favorite gratitude practice — Le Love List!
Your Instagrams! Thanks to all of you who left your handles on my last Pictures Of Things post. I’ve loved finding all of you there and getting lovely little glimpses into your lives. Unsurprisingly, you guys are awesome! // Playing Connect 4 with Waits. Playing to win and having him beat me! // Busy busy nights at the wine bar. // Talking to our cook Jerome about someone who was causing drama, and Jerome saying in all seriousness, and in his heavy Sri Lanken accent – “He’s being a Felicia. Just tell him “Bye Felicia!”. // Curling up with Waits on a rainy day, and showing him the original Ghostbusters. // My friend got a Donald Trump piñata for his 6-year-old’s birthday party. Ha! // Following other foragers, wild crafters, and nature collectors, on Instagram. It’s so inspiring. // California wildflower season. Seeing the hillsides blanketed in bright yellow wild mustard, golden orange California poppies, and pale purple lupins. // Sitting in the spring sun, eating a honey crisp apple, and lovin’ life. // Mango con chili. // My baby boy turned six years old. It seems so old — so long — so much life encapsulated in those years . . . for both of us. And it also seems so short. Six is still so very small. And Waits is big and bright and wild and willful, but he is also tender and concerned and innocent and so, so sweet. Six is good. Six is straddling two worlds and I am determined to drink up every little bit of this very lovely, very precious, and oh-so-very fleeting, moment of his childhood. ♥ ♥ ♥.
Alright guys, now it’s your turn! Making a Love List is such a great way to reconnect to your center, remember what’s important, and also, to kick off the weekend! I would so love to read your Le Love Lists, so please feel free to leave them in the comments below.
And as always, I hope you have the most delightful weekend!