Pictures Of Things + Le Love List

September 26th, 2014 - filed under: Furthermore » Feedback

people of walmart

People of Walmart?


Welp, my Maryland Vacation has come to an end. And do you know what that means? It means my Summer Vacation is ending as well. Next week I return to grad school, and boy howdy am I having a lot of feelings about that.

This summer has been beautiful. Relaxed and creative and meandering and even a little hedonistic. Inspired and introspective, and very very fun. It’s been a wonderful summer and now it’s ending, which is okay on it’s face – all things do end – but what that means is that other things are beginning. Things like . . . teaching a class at 8 am. *squawk!* And starting my last year of grad school, the first of that final march towards the enormous, looming exit exam that I’ll have to pass. And seeing this big grant project through to completion. And authoring a paper. Learning and teaching. And if all goes well – graduating.

And after that? Another ending that’s really just an even scarier beginning. Because then I have to land the job.

And so, I am feeling lots of feelings, and most of them aren’t especially enjoyable.

It was a good vacation, but also a difficult time for me, very caught up inside my own head. And now I’m back, looking over snapshots, and trying to ready myself for what lies ahead. A few of those snapshots from our time spent in Maryland :


taproot magazine

This magazine (not entirely vegan, be warned) in the morning with coffee, listening to Jeremy’s mama singing on her porch swing. I have fallen deeply, obsessively, excessively in love with this magazine.


road trip sillinessdriving silliness

Silliness on the road to Baltimore.


orioles game
We went to an Oriole’s game! It was legit the most fun I’ve had in ages. And I gots a hat!


camden yards gluten free beer
And we found gluten-free beer!!! Camden Yards, prettiest stadium ever, also has g-f beer. Bestill!


1830s national tollhouse
A tollhouse from the 1830s. Yellow door for the win.


party rock glasses
Party. | Rock.


colorful graffiti rocks
This amazing place. More on this place next week.


peace sign graffiti
Okay just one more. Peace!


maryland black swallowtail

homemade birdhouse

70s basement
I found this in Jeremy’s parent’s basement/rec room. I don’t remember doing it last year but . . . I guess I’m a girl who likes to leave her mark?

~~~

And now it’s time for loving, which I really need this week. Le Love List:

Sleep. // Waits’s new bedroom was featured on Apartment Therapy! Squee!!! // Seeing the leaves changing on the East Coast. // Expo East! So many fun and fantastic new products to try, plus old friends and new friends and so much awesome. // Sports. Who knew?! // We ate corn on the cob every. single. night. at Jeremy’s mom’s house. And if that sounds like a complaint, you definitely have never tasted Maryland corn. California may have avocados and almonds and olives, but we can’t grow corn for shit. This Maryland corn is like no corn I’ve ever tasted, and every morning I would ask, “More corn?” and they would get more for dinner that night. Every night. // I *really* enjoyed this New York Times article, The Death Of Adulthood In American Culture. Like, I mean it’s maybe the best article I’ve read all year. Not just in the quality of the thesis – which is legit – but also in the caliber of the writing. It was just a dang pleasure to read. // I’m not particularly excited by Ello itself, but the idea of eliminating Facebook entirely just tickles me pink. So I’m giving Ello a try. @sayward. // Picnics. // Traveling with Jeremy makes me so dang happy. To travel well together is a blessing. // Reunion. Despite all the volatile emotions of these ending-beginning days, I have my Harley dog back by my side, and my baby boy back in my arms. Reunion with these two is the greatest gift of all, and I have endless gratitude for that.

And now, it’s your turn! Tell me what you’re loving (or hell, what you’re feeling) in the comments below. Love Lists are so important for practicing gratitude. But the most important thing is emotional honesty. Authenticity. Always and forever.

I promise.

And, I hope you all have a truly wonderful weekend!

♥ ♥ ♥

  • Jbuesch

    I love youuuuu!!!

    What else: Freedom. Authenticity. Autumn. Kissing. Planning a girls’ trip. Vegfest is tomorrow! And finally: my new puppers.

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Aww, I was just thinking about you on the drive home from LAX last night! We need a phone date soooooon

  • Jbuesch

    Yes! pick a day next week :-)

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    I’ll text ya!

  • Lacy Davis

    This week I am loving the influx of support around the blog-o-sphere, coffee, getting over my end-of-summer cold, fall crispness in the air, the almost-release of my new e-cookbook, and music! specifically, this: http://www.punknews.org/article/55966/punknews-saturday-afternoon-movie-mtv-12

  • jen

    Love love love your blog. What I’m feeling? Stress stress stress and more stress. Life is chaos at the moment. Even in the midst of the roughness of life I am able to find a few things I love: Crisp and cool mornings and evenings that let me know Fall is here. Seeing my kids happy and healthy. Taking my youngest to her very first birthday party and see her express her excitement.

  • http://thewh0lestory.com Vanessa

    That tollhouse is magical! P.S. What are you studying? I’m considering grad school but I just can’t pull the trigger on applying..it’s such a big decision!

  • http://www.theveganchickpea.com theveganchickpea

    it’s my last year in graduate school, too! so many emotions, thoughts, feelings… i can understand.

    my me love list: my husband putting away the dishes in the dishwasher when i’m at class/ thai food/ a clean and trimmed garden and front yard in time for autumn and winter/ weekend naps/ chilly-warm autumn air/ getting up before the sun rises.

  • Cara

    Sounds like a wonderful respite for you.

    I hope you didn’t buy anything at Walmart!

  • Sonja

    I love your honesty and authenticity as always! Thanks for sharing your thoughts. The positive and negative ones.

    My list this week:
    - spending time with my dad
    - postcard from my god son
    - my tiny “book circle”
    - playing catch up with old friends I haven’t seen in 5 years
    - getting a dress for a wedding at my favorite thrift shop
    - autumn sun
    - listening

  • Angie

    The Death of Adulthood is a great article! Thank you for sharing. This is something I have thought about a lot, but the article definitely summed it up better than I ever could.
    I look forward to your Love Lists and would love to participate this week!
    I am loving: bursts of creativity/my bulldogs/the emergence of fall/sweaty workouts that leave me spent/leftovers/being asked by some of my students to start a vegan & vegetarian club at school!

  • http://howtofeedawookie.blogspot.com/ WookieWifey

    <3 the Wookie…gave me an amazing birthday filled with cake and prizes and thrift store trips
    <3 garage sales and the flea market – so many treasures!
    <3 POPCHIPS!! You tried these? They're DELICIOUS and I didn't notice until I after I was eating them and reading the back that they are gluten free AND vegan.
    <3 coffee. always coffee.
    <3 Goodwill shopping trips with my amazing SIL

    …I REALLY FUCKIN' LOVE shopping this week it seems LMAO!!

  • http://windycityvegan.wordpress.com/ Monika {windycityvegan}

    I love reading about your experiences returning to school as an adult, because I feel like I’m just a half-step behind you. It blows me away when I think about the places you and I were in when I first found Bonzai. Lady, we’ve done some serious growing. *Sigh*

    I was so excited to see you with an issue of Taproot on IG last week. I have most of them, I think the very first (called Soil) is still my favorite. Oh, and sweet corn! It is my favorite favorite food in the entire world. (especially smothered in shiro miso) My uncle was an organic sweet corn farmer and growing up, I didn’t know there was anything less perfect than his sun-kissed Iowa corn.

    Le Love List!!
    Last week was horribly awful – I was plagued with migraines while parenting solo (tiny violin, I know, I know) and studying for midterms – but I managed to come out the other side, my midterms went really well, and I didn’t crack a book all weekend long. // New doughnut pans. Full-sized, not minis. // Planning a camping trip on the beach for my birthday. It’s going to be cold and windy and I don’t even care because we’re going camping! By the ocean! On an island only accessible by ferry, with little-to-no visible commercialism! Also, no electricity at the campsite, which should be interesting. // Season four of the Walking Dead just came out on Netflix. // Nigel Slater’s cookbooks. // Digging through my stacks (and stacks and stacks) of cooking magazines to find exactly what I was looking for. // Law school. Loving it, even when I’m grinding out a research assignment. // Nina, playing soccer, cheeks bright red and hair plastered to her skull; just watching her run for 70 minutes straight is invigorating. // Did I mention apple cider doughnuts yet? Because they’re going to happen.

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Thank you Sonja, I promise to always share both sides,positive and negative (and hope the p outweighs the n!)

    Love the Love List, and YES on the autumn sun! I love autumn light, it’s brighter and harsher and so much clearer than summer light. I just noticed it for the first time on a walk this morning. =)

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Aww, I love this comment so much. Seriously, it’s been a long time and we have both grown and changed so much. It makes me more happy than I could possibly say, and I cant wait for the day when we meet! (some day!)

    Are you really in midterms already?? Geeze, my quarter is starting sooo late this year. And I love hearing about N playing soccer. I really want W to play but he’s pushing for baseball, oh well. Hopefully he’ll catch the soccer bug eventually. Those high energy kids of ours – they are made for a game like soccer!

    Love hearing from you and checking in. ♥

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Yay! So glad you had the bestest birthday and such a great week! I haven’t had popchips in years but I do remember loving them. Maybe a little *too* much which is maybe why I stopped buying them . . . Also, secondhand shopping is one of my greatest pleasures, so I totally get it! It’s a wonderful way to celebrate a birthday week =)

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Thanks so much for participating Angie! Yeah that article summed up a lot of semi-formed ideas I’d had, and it was awesome seeing it all laid out and logical and cogent and so beautifully written.

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Thanks Cara, it was a great end-of-summer respite, indeed.

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Oh it’s so overwhelming right?! Totally exciting and fun, but also so. dang. overwhelming.

    It’s nice to have fellow sister-in-grad-school (SIGS?) on the blog. Y’all make me feel less crazy and alone, so thanks for the support and solidarity. ♥

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Hi Vanessa, I started out studing evolutionary biology (macroevolution) but have recently switched to behavioral ecology. And you should totally do it! I mean, at least apply. But man . . . pull the trigger! Go back! Grad school is maddening and it tears you all the way down before you find your way back up, but it almost always – I’d guess 98% of the time – pays off in the end. Can’t really go wrong with more education and an alphabet after your name. ;-)

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Thank you jen. And thanks so much for being honest. Stress is the worst, I always tell Jeremy, “Take a deep breath, try to relax. That stress becomes cancer!” and I’m totally the pot calling the kettle black. So I definitely empathize. It’s really great that you can find the time and strength to make a Love List and usher in some positivity (again, I empathize). I hope it helped! ♥

  • http://bonzaiaphrodite.com/ Sayward Rebhal

    Thanks Lacy! Also I haven’t been able to post a comment on your blog (effing time management is not my friend these days, oi) but I DID add your ex vegan story to my post on Vegans Talking About Ex-Vegans. So hopefully more people will find it and will be able to use you as the resource that you are! Thanks so much for writing that – it is such an important story in this giant puzzle we are slowly piecing together.

  • http://thewh0lestory.com Vanessa

    It’s such a big decision to me! But yeah, I adore learning and would totally be a full-time student if I could be! Thanks for the advice and encouragement! What are you looking to do with that degree?